Back home and pondering...

Just got back from a weekend with the mouse. There were some suprises at the park...like ElecTRONica...LOVED IT! Glowjitos rock and the music was great. I was dancing all around California Adventure. It's so nice to have kids old enough to go on rides without me.

Once again, though, I am suprised at my actions. Had some very interesting things go on during the weekend and normally I would have been all up in it letting them know that I am pissed but I found myself biting my tounge to save the weekend. In the end I am extremely disappointed with myself. I let some things happen that were disrepectful. Now I sit in my house pissed. The only way to let it go is to put it out there. I don't know why I keep these feelings inside. It just eats away at me and gives me stress. I don't need any stress in my life.

Overall the weekend was great and I, once again, realize that I LOVE disney. LOVE LOVE LOVE. Toy story is the best...I totally rocked the score! Best in the car....TWICE! I went on grizzly twice and splash mountain twice. I never go on the water rides and they were so much fun. Got drenched the second time..like I took a shower. It was 11:30pm and I was FREEZING. but so much fun. My two fav moments were friday night at electronica/world of color and saturday night espn zone to the end hanging with the bono group!

Time to go to disneyland!

Is it wrong how excited I am to go to disneyland tomorrow? I was sitting with the 7yo I'm going with the other day and the excitement on his face was making me burst with excitement. He wants to ride everything, see everything. His eagerness to get there and go is contagious. I love going to my favorite place with people who haven't been or in he and his brothers case, have been but weren't old enough to remember. He told me that two summers ago he went to San Diego and his favorite part was Medival Times, which made me laugh since it's really in buena park..close to disneyland! He wants to leave disney and go to dinner there..telling me I'll really like it, but I said next time.

I am still contemplating the season pass. It would not save if we only go down pre cruise. I'm not sure if I want to go down in the summer too. I guess I'll make up my mind when we get there.

I'll post pics later...

Making Plans and hanging out

Is it wrong to be a planner? There are worse things I can think of to have as a bad habit. Why is it that I can't handle not knowing the intimate details of an event coming up but I am fine with last minute invitations. There is no middle ground. On that note I have made my ressies for our pre cruise disney trip to Disneyland. I am currently in a dilemma of whether I should get season passes for DL or just continue to buy tix to the park. We are going down this month and again in April but will we be going again? Not sure so I hesitate. I have time to think so I'll just sit on it for a bit. I have also checked on my points needed for our planned Hawaii trip next thanksgiving. So far away but since everything is being done with miles/points I need to know now. Planning IS a good thing.

I would love to add another trip in the mix but I think that is being greedy. I think I'll just save up for tay to go to camp again next summer. I'm hoping next summer I can spend some more time at the beach with her in cali. Another fun trip to central coast would be worth it. I hate that I wasn't able to get away this past summer. Hopefully next summer this eating right exercising thing will produce results to help me feel more comfy!

On that note...the gym is going great. I really enjoy and quite frankly feel a need to go to the gym. Every opportunity to get there during the week I take and if I can't get there I go on the weekend. I love taking the classes. It's like dance class but harder. I love dancing and miss it so much. Not necessarily going to the clubs anymore, but wouldn't it be great if we could just dance all the time. I think people would be much happier if they could just dance it out.

However all of this gym time is severely cutting into my tv watching. I would like to say that's a good thing because I'm not a couch potato but I'm still recording in the hopes that I will sit on my ass and do nothing and watch it all so not quite a changed woman yet.

Volleyball at school is almost over. All of our games were cancelled this week which is a bummer since it's our last week. The only thing we have to do is the parent/student challenge and our end of season party. My team was 1-2 and tays team was 1-2 and 8th grade was 0-3 so overall kinda sucky. Tays soccer is winding down too. It's been a tough season this year. Quite different from last year. She is starting to shine but it's late in the season. She played a great game last week. On FIRE! She is having a great time in 7th grade but still struggling to handle all of her responsibilities. It's a work in progress for sure.

We have some fun stuff coming up this month and next. I look forward to the adventures. Planned or not..but preferably planned :)

Is there anything Jersey can't do??

Is it wrong how much I love all the reality Jersey shows? From Housewives to drunkens sluts and hairdressers. This is pretty much all of the TV I have paid attention too this summer and early fall. I have a dvr that is FULL! I need to clear out my regular tv but I have no time to watch. Having no time is good. I am really sticking to my work out regime in between tays sports. It's all good. I have been using that money I spend every month on the gym.

School is chugging along. I have almost finished my volleyball coaching responsibilities. We lost our first 2 matchs but won our final match. It was very exciting. Every year I learn a little more about what to teach/show and how to coach. I really like getting to know the new 6th graders. They are so cute and sweet.

Taylor's team is 1-2 also. They have one more game and they should win. We shall see! Her soccer team is faltering and it's pissing me off. It's hard to go from 2nd place to the bottom. I'm hoping tomorrows game will be awesome, we shall see. She really enjoys soccer so i'm keeping my fingers crossed that her team will pick it up.

Club Volleyball is starting soon. Clinics start now and tryouts are in a month. Tay is ready for try outs but she is not really into the clinics. We are going anyways. She needs the extra help for try outs.

So there's the update from our house. Everything else is pretty boring. Peace!

We made it!

Well the first week of school is officially over and I'm proud to say both tay and I made it through. The start of a new school year is exciting and exhausting. It's so wonderful to see all the old faces again, how big the kids are getting. All of the hugs and smiles and so many new faces. It's exhausting to constantly be "on" laughing, engaging while trying to get work done! Tay said she had a great week. She's happy with her homeroom and advisor. She started volleyball practice in the hot sun outside and made it through. Soccer is going along. We had our jamboree and didn't do great but it was good to see the issues that need to be worked out. I was chastised by a dad for not having only positive comments...i didn't realize it was his daughter that made the mistake..now i know she sucks! LOL. I'll just go back to reading again. I have alot of summer reading that didn't get done this year.

I am coaching 6th grade volleyball again. This year I have 16 girls that have come out! So exciting. Most have had some experience and I hate to brag...not... but my team is awesome! We are going to start working on game practice this week. Our first game is not for a while so we have lots of time to master.

I am also a room mom but so far have sucked in my duties. I have missed every event and meeting due to work responsibilities. I keep apologizing and thankfully my other mom partners are very kind and understanding.

The balance of my summer has been spent working and hanging out at my house. The neighbors grandkids have been here all summer so tay (when she was home) spent all her time over there. I picked up a bad habit of beer drinking. I have resigned to stop drinking..well beer anyways.. so that my work outs can be productive. I also have been staying faithful to the gym and eating healthy. Each week I am successfully losing weight. It's been frustrating because i want to lose alot and it seems so slow. BUT my friend reminded me that each week I am LOSING and that is what is important. AND I feel fantastic. This is the most important part.

My tv watching has seriously slowed down due to all of this activity. However I still have found time for true blood, weeds and all my real housewives. True Blood is amazing as usual. I am about 2 books ahead of the show and am enjoying how HBO and alan ball are changing it up.

There's the update from our home. Enjoy your labor day weekend. I need to vaccum.

tick tick tick...BOOM

The time is upon us for school to begin. Teachers return next week and I am definately feeling the pressure. It's been a busy, challenging summer on so many levels. I'm not sure at the end how I am feeling about this one. I think time will tell. Here is an interesting realization that just came up...

When I was in HS I worked at a 711 type store for over 1 1/2 years. I really liked working there and have alot of great memories of coworkers and fun times. I was not a perfect employee by any means, but I certainly wasn't the worst! Eventually I was fired because I refused to work a holiday. I refused because it was at my birthday and I had worked every holiday previous. The manager and several employees told the owner that I should get the day off but he was being a douche. That was my first job and I was fired. I have carried that with me to every job I have had. Including my current one, where I have been for 14years! That situation has kept me on my toes at each subsequent job. BUT is that good? I'm always thinking that no matter how hard I work or how dedicated I am to my job, I will be fired. It's funny that I just realized how much of an impact something had on me over 25 years later! It's really pathetic that I can say over 25 years ago!

This summer I have faced many personal and professional walls. I still keep climbing over. Some people think that those walls are getting higher and higher and if I don't start knocking them down instead of climbing over...i'm going to fall. It's inevitable. I still keep climbing. I can't knock them down, I don't have the confidence or the energy. In that order unfortunately!

After that wah poor me up above, I will give myself a giant pat on the back...I have been consistent with my diet and excercise. The best part is that I have been dancing again. I love to dance and the aerobic dance classes are my favorite. I'm no SYTYCD dancer but I can keep up. It's wonderful and uplifting. I'm going to continue the accolades because I have learned that NO is in my vocabulary when it comes to food (not alcohol...don't worry) and I can go to the gym by myself...i don't like it but I will do it!

My daughter is amazing, as usual. She's still having an awesome summer and I'm completely jealous.

Is school really starting soon???

I can't believe that school is going to be starting soon. It's been quite hectic at the workplace..getting everything ready for the kids. We are in the beginning of a massive remodeling of our middle school and I am in the beginning of a massive remodeling of myself. I am proud to say that I have been working out regularly and will continue to do so. Between my friend jen and my neighbor and linda I have plenty of people to make sure I keep my fat ass in gear and working. I have a plan that I will be back down to "cruise" weight by our spring break trip. Then keep on going to get back to a happy weight after. So maybe next summer I can enjoy it. Now, I've never let the way I look direct me. I still go to the beach etc. but it will be nice to feel totally free. I figure if I could stop biting my fingernails after 40 years, I can do this. Habits are hard to break but I'm going to try my best and thats all I can hope. I will say that I feel great after each class. I've been doing pilates and water aerobics. Last night I did a hip hop class and had the BEST time. I so miss dance classes! I also tried zumba but it was super hard..fun but super hard.

Tay has had a great summer. I never had a summer as good as this kid! She is ready for 7th grade. I can't believe how big my baby is now. She's really starting to turn into a young lady. I helped a friend bring her new baby into the world. It was so nice holding that baby in my arms. Stirred something in me but then reality hit and I remembered they are nice to hold but even nicer to give back to their mommys!

Well i'm off to catch up with all the jersey craziness....the shore, the salon, the housewives..it's all way too good to pass up. TTYL